Hairy Scary - A Rant

So I know you've been wondering, "what's going on with Jennifer's hair?".  No, you really haven't been wondering that, but here's an update anyway.

I have zero growth on my scalp where I cold capped.  Yes, it saved some of my hair and I am grateful for that.  But the promised "early regrowth" was bullshit for me.  No growth and still shedding.  Every day, I lose another bunch of hair.  It sucks.  

After 12 weeks PFC, Paxman (the scalp cooling company) instructed me to reach out to my oncologist who sent me to a local dermatologist who specializes in hair regrowth.  I had that appointment this Thursday.  I went in, explained everything, and was told "it will regrow" and to "use topical Rogaine".  That's it.  I didn't need to see an MD to hear that.  And guess what - I can't use Rogaine every day because my hair is still shedding and it will just cause more hair to come out.  

I'm pissed.  I haven't washed my hair more than 2 times a week since October.  I haven't used a hairdryer, flat iron, hair brush, normal shampoo and conditioner since October.  I'm tired of hair falling out and wearing baseball caps.  I hate baseball caps.  I cannot wait to throw them all away.

I didn't anticipate needing baseball caps into the spring.  I'm traveling to FL on Friday and it's 80 degrees down there...and I'll need to wear a baseball cap.  And since I started Anastrozole (my 7 year, daily med to suppress the production of estrogen in my body), the hot flashes are back and hats are hell with that.

I feel like everyone in the medical community is kicking the can down the road.  I have hair growth everywhere BUT on my scalp.  I've had my eyebrows waxed and my facial hair is so thick that I'm getting my face derma-planed on Tuesday.  I don't know where to go with this scalp issue.  

Sorry for the rant but this is infuriating.  I didn't freeze my scalp 11 times to have this result.  I was so excited for the dermatologist visit and so bummed with their answer.  Just needed to vent.  It's never ending...xo J

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