Updates since Chemo Day Two

 Shockingly, I feel fine.  Like really fine.  Things I've done in the past 24 hours:

  • Went to my 5:30am workout on Thursday morning.
  • Packed up and drove back to Maine (my husband drove, but I didn't nap on the ride).
  • Went to a 'Friendraiser' event in Kennebunkport - wore Candace - it's getting easier and I definitely need to book an appointment to have her 'tweaked'.  The woman in the salon told me I'd be back to have her 'tweaked'.  I asked what that would be; she replied "you will know when you know".  I know.  
  • Went out to quick dinner.
  • Took Ativan to sleep last night.
  • Was up and at 6:15am Beach Bootcamp followed by coffee.  
  • Have a tee time at 10:40.
So really, there's nothing to report.  My big take away from this week is that Wednesdays (treatment days) are shot.  Don't plan anything, don't expect anything.  My goal of hitting Boston Speaker Series was laughable in hindsight.  Cold capping + chemo drain me.  I'll have a date with my bed on Wednesdays after treatment.  But I've woken on Thursdays feeling shockingly normal.

However, there's also part of me that's waiting for the other foot to drop.  I'm guessing I'll be tired tomorrow (day 3 after chemo).  I hope to make a golf date I've planned (9 holes, with cart) and attend the Paddle Club's opening round robin and party.  

Additionally, I'm also on hair watch.  Somewhere between now and week 4 is when the shedding begins.  Cold capping can only do so much, and if you recall, I have an 80% chance of keeping 50% of my hair.  Every glance in the mirror is more than that - it's a quick inventory of my head.  Checking the wide-toothed comb for hairs.  Checking the drain in the shower for hairs.  My pillow when I wake up.  It's lurking and I'm waiting. 

So all is well, with an undercurrent of worry.  Maybe no different than life pre-cancer, right?  xo J

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